Let Your Past Give You Courage


My life has shown me one of the biggest tragedies in the Church. There is a wall we fail to see, or rather, we choose not to see. There is a wall that Satan has built to separate us from the other side. What is on the other side? You know the answer. It is the world: the prostitutes, addicts, thieves and liars. We don’t like to admit it, but we do so little for them. We love to talk about all we do for the poor, but what about those that are going to take our valued time and commitment? Are we willing to sacrifice our own cleanliness to reach those who are the most “unclean”? 

Growing up I did not come from a Christian family. In fact, my family was far from it. My dad chose drugs and alcohol over our family, time and time again. My mom was not around for most of my high school years and always looked for love and acceptance in the wrong men. I was so frustrated with life. When I was 13 years old, I went home to my dad who was passed out drunk on a dirty old couch that most of “the church” wouldn’t dare sit in. I screamed at him, “Dad if you don’t want to love me, then I am just going to leave.” His reply was, “pack your bags and go.” I left and over the next three years got wrapped up in drugs, alcohol and sex. At 16 years old, I was arrested with 30 counts of grand theft auto. 

Facing jail time at 16, I was so scared, lost and alone. I had seemingly hit the bottom. It was then that a classmate of mine invited me to church. I went, not in search of a savior, but of a rescue rope to get me out of the hole I was in. I am so grateful that the church I was invited to was one that knew how to run a rescue camp in the pit for those like me. It was not the perfect church, but it was the perfect one for me that day.

I gave my life to Christ and although it was not easy at first, my life has never been the same. My past has given me the courage for the work God is now doing through me. My hope and prayer is that more of the Church would allow God to lead them into the pit and bring others back with them. Let’s be bold together.

Josh Brewer